Autism + Loved to the moon and back

Embracing life in all it's ups and downs, is really important because for a long, long time this often eluded me until I finally made a full and lasting recovery from long-term depression about 10 years ago...

Now when I'm faced with challenges, I draw upon my faith, art, self-compassion, my family and beauty, always beauty.  This is one of those times...  I also know that you can't 'embrace' the good times without the not so good - it's all a part of the whole story, the whole picture, right.

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I'm not sure why I'm sharing this news (although I always wear my heart on my sleeve) but somewhere there might be someone who reads this who understands or might be going through the same experience.  Two days ago, we got the diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder (Asperger's or high functioning autism as it's more commonly known) for our ten-year old son, Joseph.  I have to say the diagnosis of autism wasn't really a shock but then again, it really is (if that makes sense?).

I feel so many emotions but the main ones have to be sadness for Joseph, relief, worry, anxiety and such responsibility.  I'm scared and somehow empowered with this knowledge at the same time.  Empowered because it explains so much and scared because what if I get it wrong and I fail him?  Joseph's first reaction was relief - it gives some name to the anguish he goes through.  I'm also grateful because so many people have never had a diagnosis and probably never will.

So, as we make sense of this news and figure out how to best help Joseph, I turn to what I know.  I turn to art, my journal, prayer and a deep knowing that it's all meant to be.  That he's my beautiful, special boy and always will be.  That's he's loved 'to the moon and back' - just as I used to say to him when he was little.

Autism diagnosis - still our boy









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Ecourse update + Louise Gale

I'm really enjoying bringing together Embrace, my new ecourse (starting Monday, 21 April).   It's proving to be a lot of work but so worthwhile on many, many levels.  Inevitably, there's been some teething issues but I'm slowly working through those.  Mainly though, I'm just so excited about all of it and the possibilities this has opened up for me. Yesterday, I interviewed the lovely Louise Gale for my ecourse and we talked about how she 'embraces' life and in particular how she finds inspiration from nature and her practice of creating mandalas.  What an inspiration she is! Screen Shot

The boys are off school for Easter now, so it's gentler mornings, day trips, family walks and snatching time here and there for my work.




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New artwork + signs of Spring

Oh I do so love this time of year. What a relief to see signs of new life all around. I find myself touching blooming buds, photographing daffodils, looking up at the bluer (sometimes) sky, waking up earlier to lighter mornings, listening to the birds singing and then watching them gather nest material and of course the super cuteness of newborn lambs. It's all so good - the wonder of it all. daffodils and painting

new artwork

In between the celebrating of the arrival of Spring, there has been a lot of (minor) illness in our family recently.  I'm struggling again (just got over the last one a couple of weeks ago) with a nasty cold and the boys have both had stomach upsets and colds too.  It's kind of 'almost' funny that this has been happening just at the same time as I am preparing my ecourse entitled 'Embrace'.  I've had to really focus on the good things and what's working well and then try to push forward knowing that this too will pass but I'd be lying if I said it's been easy, far from it.

As I look around though at all this new life, it reminds me that everything has it's own unique rhythm and that there are ebbs and flows naturally in life - as with the seasons there is a time of blooming (Spring/Summer) and a time of quiet (Winter).  This simple realisation has given me comfort and renewed my deep sense of knowing and trust, that things will work out just as they are meant to and in the meantime, I need to, well, just embrace it all.

I do hope you're well and enjoying the first signs of Spring or Autumn (depending on where you are).

In the meantime, I've listed some new paintings (snippets of the paintings above) in my Etsy shop - please take a peek and I hope you like them.

By the way, the flowers below have just arrived this morning from my Mum - thanks for the get well wishes and I just love these hydrangeas.  Love you Mum!


Jane x


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Embrace - 'soul whispers'

In my new ecourse, 'Embrace' one of the things we will be exploring is when life becomes so hectic that we can literally 'tune out' our longings, soul whispers and dreams... 

We can find that surviving the day is the only activity we can truly put our energies into.  We fall into bed exhausted and before we know it, a new day is before us once again.

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But what happens to what's on the inside - on our hearts?  The thing is, those aspirations and hopes for our lives don't go away and if we don't pay attention to them, we can often feel stifled, unfulfilled and empty.  That's what happened to me, my friend...

However, once I began to acknowledge my soul whispers and give them space to breathe, flourish and come to life, I noticed subtle shifts.  Initially, it just took time and gentle pursuasion to identify what the whispers were saying.   It felt foreign to me as I had been in the intensive mothering stage for so long (and then our youngest was about to start school) that I had lost all sense of who I was.

At first, what 'came through' seemed quite unknown and a bit distant to me.  Some of it was uncomfortable, unsettling and sad, other bits were exciting, joyous and unexpected.  I also knew that life wouldn't be the same again...

The great take away of all this though, was that finally I felt I had given myself permission to expand my wings and dare to ponder, reflect and dream - this was the beginning path to great healing and insight.

So, perhaps my story resonates with you and you feel it's your turn to dig a little deeper?  Well, my friend, I invite you to print off my digital pdf from the following link: heart whispers and have a go at answering the prompts.  There is no right or wrong, so just give yourself the gift of time for 10 mins and see what you get...  You could always hang your answers on the fridge and then come back to them and see if they 'sit' right with you over the next couple of days.

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If you would like to have someone 'catch' your thoughts and dreams with you, then I'm more than happy to be here for you...

Jane x

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